Bittersweet Cravings

So you're probably thinking food right now. WRONG

actually you're kind of right , but there's more to it. I am craving cupcakes right now but that's not what i wanted to talk about. Unless you wanna go deeper in the subject. You do?

Chocolate cupcakes with peanut butter and caramel fillings, WITH ICING.

ok ok that's not IT okay. stupid cravings!

I'm in one of my crazy moods. not sad not entirely happy ..just insane.

You know what i crave the most? Appreciation. Not love or romance and all that mumbo jumbo.

I don't want it, i crave it. Not from everyone, actually not from so many! come to think of it i can just think of hmmm maybe 3 ppl ? lol

It's just too sweet when you do something or say something and you know you're being appreciated for it. I can't tell you, to me that's my ultimate high !

Of course, i truly believe that when something good is done , there shouldn't be any unclear intentions, my Dad (my very own favorite wise guy) always says no matter how big how great how awesome a thing someone does for you or anyone for that matter, It doesn't mean anything if this person has some hidden agenda behind what he did for you. Not to him and most importantly not to God. In the end, He only knows what's in your heart and mind.

Now here's my ultimate low, it's when the people you care about most wont acknowledge or appreciate what you do, how you feel .

It's not only sad, depressing, frustrating, it's beyond bitter. It's bitter to the point where i wanna pull my hair out , ok ok not pull my hair out. Maybe yank it here and there. lol

These are my bittersweet cravings. I keep wanting to prove, i dont think i can give up for the people i love. not now not ever.